Monday, January 22, 2007

This chemical imbalance in my brain is driving me crazy *

I’m sure I’ve mentioned several times that I’m taking Zoloft for my depression and anxiety. (I’m too lazy to look it up, but take my word for it.) It’s helped me quite a bit, I think. Last week I noticed that my prescription was running out and I had no more refills, so I called my doctor and had her call the pharmacy for me. Then I promptly forgot all about it.

How did I not realize that I had missed a few doses? What can I say, I’m a complete ding-dong. I keep the bottle of pills next to my toothpaste so I remember to take them after I brush my teeth. When the pills ran out, I threw away the bottle. Out of sight, out of mind.

Until I started to flip out, that is. I’d been feeling a little off all weekend, but I chalked it up to having been quarantined with sick kids for several days. But yesterday it was hard to pretend nothing was wrong. First I bit Jack’s head off for no reason. “What is wrong with you?” he asked me. “Me?” I snapped back. “What the hell is wrong with you?” I left “motherfucker” off the end of that, but believe me, it was hanging there. By afternoon, I was climbing the walls and screaming at everyone who crossed my path.

I remembered my prescription just before the pharmacy closed. So now I’m back on track, although I’m still not feeling quite like my normal self. Although I’m no believer in the Cartesian theory of mind-body dualism, I’m still amazed that who I am is such a function of my brain biochemistry.

That shit just makes me lose my fucking mind! *

* Shamelessly stolen from my all-time favorite article in The Onion.


bomas said...

I know exactly what you are going through.I hope you feel better real soon.

Alisyn said...

For the first time in my life, I know the joy of chemical relief for feeling like shit, and MAN! What a difference. I put mine next to the coffee maker.

Student Nurse Jack said...

I'm trying to pretend I have no freaking idea what you're talking about.

Feeling batshit crazy here these last few weeks. Makes me evaluate whether or not it's time to get back on something.

Stephanie said...

I'm really thinking hard about calling my doctor and getting myself some kind of prescription. Do they have anti-rage pills? That's what I think I need. I'm not depressed, I'm just pissed off all the time.